birdspiritland | Generalized Ranting Ensues

I'm annoyed with melodrama in general right now. Stating things in a big, huge voice for everyone to see how much you're emoting, how much you suffer. This is not meant to be a rant against anyone in particular or any situation in particular--it's just a rant, and this is just my disclaimer. Be warned.

Much as I may be the first one to admit that I like to do this, at the moment, I even annoy myself. I think that it's more a combination of annoyance with the necessity of words to describe states that should be obvious, combined with a certain wish for throwing away big words to get to honesty and what people really mean when they say things. And a wish that everyone could understand everyone else with regards to what they really mean by what they say. I want to scream at humanity and say, "Why don't you fucking UNDERSTAND each other?"

If it's a choice between someone being nice to me and not telling me the truth about a situation or their feelings, or them being honest with me and possibly hurting me, I'd rather have the latter. I'd rather have someone tell me that they're sick of me and to go away than to lie and say no, it's fine, I'm perfectly all right with your being here. I occasionally pick up on it when people do this to me, and I wish that they'd tell me things to my face. It's like they don't think I'm strong enough to take it, or that it'll ruin our relationship if they tell me. But I'd rather be tactfully honest.

I love words, but I'm also frequently frustrated with them. I hate seeing situations that are constricted tighter and tighter by words and phrases that the people in the situations neither meant nor said, but which are implicitly assumed. On the news, in the paper, on the Net, on the phone. Everywhere. People are so damn afraid of other people, who are afraid right back at them. Afraid to touch each other.

Melodrama annoys me today. Just cut the crap and say what you mean.

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That felt really, really good.